Rachel Higginson, you blew me away!

Posted November 21, 2017 by FMA in 5 Stars - It fed my addiction!, Excerpt

Rachel Higginson, you blew me away!Constant by Rachel Higginson
Series: The Confidence Game #1
Published by Indie
on 11/16/2017
Pages: 266
Genres: Contemporary, Romance
Review Copy Provided By: Author


Fifteen years ago I met Sayer Wesley. I fell in love with him. I promised I would never leave him. I swore nothing could break us apart.

Five years ago I broke my promise. I ran away. I took the one secret that could destroy us both and disappeared.

Five days ago I thought I saw him.

I knew it was impossible. Sayer was locked away, serving a deserved sentence in federal prison. He couldn’t find me.

He wouldn’t find me. I was too good at hiding. Too good at surviving.

Because if Sayer ever found me, there would be hell to pay for a plethora of sins. The worst of which, he didn’t even know about.

Five hours ago, I told myself I was crazy.

Five minutes ago, I saw him again.

Five seconds ago, I was too late.

I was provided a review copy; this did not influence my opinion of the book.

You’re too pretty for the Midwest, Caroline. Too daring. Too independent. They wouldn’t know what to do with a girl like you.


My thoughts when I started this book

My thoughts when I finished this book


Let me explain, I love this author’s voice and I’ve yet to read a book by her I didn’t enjoy. However, this was a totally different subject from her, and frankly, I had no idea she had this in her!  ‘Constant’, was a little bit gritty, a little bit sexy and a whole lot good!  BUT THAT ENDING! I’m still salty!

Caro’s life was immersed in the Russian mafia thanks to her father being a low-level lackey. His parenting style left a lot to be desired, taking her along on jobs, he taught her how to steal, con and lie. One day while on a job, she meets Sayer. A homeless boy looking to survive, Sayer is more than willing to do whatever is asked of him. It wasn’t long before his tenaciousness paid off and he became an invaluable member.

Caro and Sayer become inseparable, they learned to lean on and look out for one another. Until Caro finds out she’s pregnant and Sayer refuses to leave the family. Caro’s devotion to her unborn child and her determination for her child to not be raised the same way she was, caused her to run, run away from her father, the family, and Sayer.

I didn’t leave Sayer because I stopped loving him. I left him because I found someone else that needed my love more.

Five years after running, she comes face to face with the man she left behind. Sayer is no longer the same young man he used to be. He’s bigger, stronger and hardened and he’s angry. He wants answers and he’s not going to leave Caro alone until he gets them.

If you’ve not read a book by this author, this is the perfect book to start with (if you can get over that ending! I mean WHAT?).  She brilliantly meshed past with present creating a thrilling, captivating second-chance love story.


There were times in my life that I thought I wouldn’t survive. I stood at the precipice of death and peered over the edge. One misstep or ill-timed gust of wind and I would have tipped over, fallen down the black abyss and never resurfaced.
Sometimes when I looked back at those moments, those infinitely dark and twisted times, I couldn’t breathe. I would feel my heart shatter all over. I would experience the tearing, crushing, ripping apart of my limbs and muscles, my tendons and veins, my heart and my mind. I would forget how to breathe.
I would forget how to be.
Until I remembered him
He was the one constant in my life that had pushed me through the darkness. He was the one constant in my life that loved me beyond everything else, beyond what I was or had been or could ever be. He wanted me to be better. He wanted to be better for me.
And yet he was as tangled in the madness as I was.
I didn’t have that life anymore. I had broken free and found something safe to build a foundation on. But I couldn’t remember the past without imagining his smile or his eyes, his touch. I couldn’t think about where I had been without thinking of where we were supposed to go.
Where he was supposed to take me.
Sometimes life doesn’t work out the way you plan. Sometimes circumstances change and sometimes they’re for the better.
But he was my constant then and he is the constant ghost that haunts me now.
I might not be with him.
But he will always be with me.


About Rachel Higginson

Rachel Higginson is the author of The Five Stages of Falling in Love, Every Wrong Reason, The Star-Crossed Series, Love & Decay Novella Series and much more! She was born and raised in Nebraska and spent her college years traveling the world. She fell in love with Eastern Europe, Paris, Indian Food and the beautiful beaches of Sri Lanka, but came back home to marry her high school sweetheart. Now she spends her days writing stories and raising five amazing kids.

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